Not long ago I was watching the new Disney movie, Frozen 2 with my family. I could see so much of my spiritual journey, my spiritual awakening in Elsa and this new path she was finding herself on. One song in particular caught my attention. Into The Unknown, (I’m sure you’ve heard it a million times,) captured so much of the emotions and internal dialogue I had with myself at the very beginning of my awakening. I was so unsure of what was happening. I felt a sense of fear and a longing at the same time.
"I can hear you but I won't. Some look for trouble while others don't. There's a thousand reasons I should go about my day, and ignore your whispers which I wish would go away."
In the very beginning, it started with dreams. I’ve always been an active dreamer, but these felt different. There was a different quality to them. Many past loved ones began appearing more and more often, and I was introduced to one of my spirit guides in a dream. I started seeing things, flashes of light, movement out of the corner of my eye. Images would pop into my mind as though they were memories, but they were not my own. I began to hear things. At first, it was at night as I was trying to go to sleep. I would hear voices, sometimes music playing. As time went on I was receiving words or phrases throughout the day.
I thought I was going crazy. I started researching, devouring every piece of information I could find that would explain what was happening to me. Some days I wanted it would go away. I would pretend that this wasn’t my new reality. It was all so overwhelming. The more I tried to ignore what was happening the more these things would appear.
"You're not a voice, you're just a ringing in my ear, And if I heard you, which I don't, I'm spoken for I fear. Everyone I've ever loved is here within these walls. I'm sorry, secret siren, but I'm blocking out your calls. I've had my adventure, I don't need something new. I'm afraid of what I'm risking if I follow you, Into the unknown."
I had just lost my father. Could this be explained as delusions of grief? A longing to connect to someone I missed so dearly? I knew in my soul that this was more than that.
Who do I even talk to about this? How would I even begin to explain? I was so afraid that if I shared what was happening I would be told I was crazy, that I would be rejected, and I would lose the people I loved.
"What do you want? 'Cause you've been keeping me awake. Are you here to distract me so I make a big mistake? Or are you someone out there who's a little bit like me? Who knows deep down I'm not where I'm meant to be? Every day's a little harder as I feel my power grow. Don't you know there's part of me that longs to go, Into the unknown?"
There was a longing that began to grow from within. I started to feel as though there was something else I was meant to be doing, that I wasn’t where I was supposed to be. The signs I was being given, the voices, the visions and dreams became more intense, more present until I could no longer ignore them.
Are you out there? Do you know me? Can you feel me? Can you show me? Where are you going? Don't leave me alone. How do I follow you Into the unknown?
The fear of the unknown slowly began to fade and I recognized that this was an opportunity from spirit, God, the Divine, to say yes. This was an opportunity to embrace these gifts that have always been inside me, laying dormant until I was willing to accept them. I was ready to learn, ready to take that leap of faith.
Has spirit ever spoken to you through a song, movie, words in a book? They can be some of the most powerful messages we receive from spirit if we just have a heart willing to listen.
Amy
Click here for part two of my spiritual awakening as told by a Disney song.
Here is another version of Into The Unknown by Panic! At The Disco, just because.
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